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Friday, February 27, 2009

today went skul to learn de QCnA practical tat i missed on monday..
using of pH meter..
after tat went to tampines eat breakfast den den movie.. pink panther 2 at century square..
planned to watch other show de but due to de timing to long so watch tis 1hr30min.. de rest was bout 2hrs or so..
planned to watch at tampines mall but still haven open so went dere..
after watching, went back to skul for cca..
argghhh de external plus drop down n hit my ankle..
now still damn pain man..

today finally quit cca liao..
felt much more relax...
so tiring..
no more cca point liao..
cos mr olivia say i nv fulfills de requirement which is 1 year..
forget it..
can always join others cca if i feel lik joining..
today was de first time when he say hurting words i feel nth..
onli felt tat de big stone in my heart is being move away..
yeah no more stress or watsoeva...
tis time i choose to quit is not bcos i dun lik tis cca or i dun wan to go aqua for IA..
is bcos tis few days too many thing had happened.. n to be truth, i haven even prepare myself for it..

today at bus 72, tears suddenly drop...
just miss her alot..

Labels: stone is being moved away.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

just now during dinner lilian(maid) say tat last night she alone at home heard taima's coughing sound..
den mama say, every spirit on de seventh day will come home..
how i wish i was de one who heard taima's coughing..
just want to hear her voice again....

Labels: miss taima's voice...

ytd de lab maths class test 3 dunno can pass anot..
today de QCnA class test 1 dunno how to do sia..
alot forgot!!!
tol whole class no skul but i got to go back skul for extra QCnA practical as i nv go skul on monday.

tis is wat i want to say...

if u guys dun believe tat de reptile is de spirit of my taima den SHUT UP N GET LOST!!!

no one ask u to believe...

u wan to say wat also can..

BUT NOT THINGS RELATED TO MY TAIMA N TAT REPTILE!!!

OR I REALLY WILL ANGRY...

N DUN BLAME MI IF U SHOUT AT U OR WATSOEVA!!!

TIS IS MY BLOG, I HAVE DE RIGHT TO SAY MY THINGS, MY BELIEVES MY FEELINGS...

CANT U UNDERSTAND WAT IS SPIRIT..

IT CAN JUST APPEAR N GO N MAYB NV APPEAR AGAIN!!!

N I REALLY WISH TAT I CAN SEE TAT REPTILE AGAIN..

BUT AFTER DE SECOND DAY OF FUNERAL, IT NV APPEAR AGAIN...

CANT I BELIEVE WAT I WAN TO BELIEVE...

i just felt so happy on de second day of funeral when i saw tat reptile cos i really believe is taima's spirit back to visit us....

I REALLY FELT SO AN WEI WHEN I SAW IT... PLS !!! I BEG U GUYS.. DUN SPOILT MY BELIEVE IN MY HEART!!

TIS IS DE ONLY THINKING TO MAKE MI FEEL BETTER!! PLS PLS PLS!!!

DUN MAKE MI HATE U!!

U GUYS BETTER STOP SAY ANYTHING BOUT TAT REPTILE.. COS I'M SENSITIVE TO ANYONE WHO SAYS BOUT IT!!!

OF CUS U GUYS DUN UNDERSTAND Y I BELIEVE TAT REPTILE IS MINE TAIMA'S SPIRIT N I DUNNO HOW TO SAY IT..

IF U GUYS LOST UR LOVES ONES N ON DE FUNERAL U SAW SOMETHING U NV SEE BEFORE N DE FUR OF DE REPTILE LOOK VER LIK WAT UR LOVES ONES IS WEARING N IS LYING INSIDE DE COFFIN, U WILL BELIEVE TAT THING IS DE PERSON'S SPIRIT..

PLS!! STOP ASKING MI ANYTHING BOUT MY TAIMA.. COS I REALLY FELT LIK CRYING WHEN I HEAR IT!!!

u may think i'm proud or wadsoeva.. even hate mi... just hate mi cos i dun give a damn... but dun ever say anything bout my taima can already..
i know tis few days i keep disturbing u n make u du lian bout mi.. but tis is de onli time tat i just forget bout de unhappy thing.. i'm sorri korshim...

SORRI FOR BEING RUDE TODAY.. COS I JUST FELT VER ANGRY N HEARTACHE WHEN PPL TALK BOUT IT..

I KNOW EVERYTHING IS OVER N I SHOULD STOP THINKING OF IT.. BUT TO MI, IS NOT OVER!! SHE'S STILL STAYING INSIDE MY HEART!!!

TAIMA I MISS U :'(

Labels: TAIMA I MISS U

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

5 days of great grandma's funeral ended..
thurday to monday..
n today..
went to collect her ashes so nv go skul..
promise myself not to cry cos ah gong say taima already so old liao so should felt happy for her.
yes for de second to de fourth day nv cry as promise.
just felt so useless...

but till de fourth day night,
while praying for her, cried.
mayb cos i saw ah ma badly which make my tears even wan to drop..
i know using ah ma name is just an excuse..
de last days cried even more when praying n senting her off to heaven..
just dun bare to let her go...

de last day, de band played 世上的妈妈是最好的 ... n when accompanied taima to de temple n when being pushing taima in for cremated at columbarium, tat de part where everyone cried most..n heartache de most...is lik broken into pieces..........

on de second day of funeral,
taima spirit came back to visit us..
n i believe tat tis reptile is taima spirit cos tis reptile has already extinict 225 millions year ago... n is de onli known as stated:

"The only known fossil of Sharovipteryx mirabilis was found in lake deposit in Kyrgyzstan in 1971. Credit: G.J. Dyke et al

The triangular delta-wing shape found on many modern fighter jets was used by a small reptile to glide between trees 225 million years ago, a new study suggests"

http://www.livescience.com/animals/060718_delta_wing.html

5 days of funeral, n have mee hoon with curry chicken for de last night were wat taima requested before she passed away.. n we had tat.. i hope she goes with a peaceful mind..

taima i miss u!!

gosh..

i dun feel lik goin to skul..

got alot of test..

which i haven even study..

n i dun feel lik studying it now..

just feeling tired..

n i want to quit my cca asap..

i cannot take it anymore..

really feeling tired liao..

first time so tired untill wan to give up thing lik fishes..

Labels: taima (great grandma) i miss u

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

today in skul cried..
just felt lik a cry baby.. n i hate it.. but i really cant control it...
rush down to hospital after skul..

for de pass few days,
great grandma still can open her eyes n look at us for a while n tried to talk..
but today...
she totally lik no strength to open her eyes at all..
all she could do was to shake her head..
around 9pm, grandma ask her whether she wan to go home anot or stay in de hospital n let de nurse look after her...
she keep shaking her head.. n we all cried..
heart damn pain la..
we knew tat she got something in mind but just cant say it..
after a short while grandma ask again.. n she keep shaking her head..
den ask her whether wan to wait for malaysia de relative come tol anot, she finally knock her head...
damn heart ache..
all i know is tat after malaysia relative come tol.. great grandma is goin peacefully to find great grandpa......

i really dun feel lik goin skul tol...!!!!!
i'm just feeling so tired...

Labels: tired.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

haiz tol GM class test 2.. but until now MY STUDY MOOD STILL HAVEN COME.. ..
study liao forget.. hiaz..
ytd berlinda teach mi de i tis morning all forgot liao..
wat wrong wif my brain man!!!
hate myself when i wan to study but JUST CANT CONCENTRATE.... cant even rmb a single thing...
hiaz... after tol de class test is practical assignment on tues liao... sian...

Labels: I CANT CONCENTRATE

Saturday, February 14, 2009

morning when to hougang dere de festival mall de kfc study GM wif ber n korshim..
around 1pm dad called mi ask mi wat time goin back cos goin to see great grandma...
had lunch, den when home..reach home around 3 pm..

rest awhile, den go hospital liao.. reach dere at 4pm
wat de hell... saw tai ma in bed... heart suddenly damn pain man... both hands wrapped wif small small de pillow to prevent her from scratching herself..
both her hands n legs n even face got blood mark.. blue black somemore.. argghhhhh... cant stand it... dun really have de energy to talk.. just sleeping... haiz..
cant rmb most of us.. but she still can rmb mi n my aunt.. hahas i ver happy la.. hees...

den next to my great grandma got one old grandma.. i duno her.. but find her damn cute.. she was sitting on de chair den suddenly she wan to stand up to walk to her bed but she was lik no energy to stand la.. her hand keep shaking den cannot stand den i went to help her up.. hahas she keep smiling to mi.. hahas

den got another old grandma.. so rude la.. keep scolding ppl dere n de nurse dere too... all de bad words from her mouth.. she ask mi to help her up cos she keep calling for de nurse but no one wan to help her up so i wanted to help but mummy say she will anyhow scold ppl de just dun care bout her n if she fall down or wat i kana.. so i went back to great grandma de bed dere pei her (:

den really she keep scolding at mi la.. lol hahas.. dun care.. just pity her onli.. den saw one male nurse next to de rude grandma bedside, hahas funny sia.. even he dun give a damn to her n just walk away la... lol.. den dunno wat happen, my aunt go talk back to her say she not we dun wan to help u up, is just tat if anything happen to u we mus be responsible.. den she keep scolding de bad words at my aunt non stop... lol... hahas somemore her bad words quite funny la.. pei fu her man.. keep scolding mouth not tired one hahas...

i was damn tired lo... den almost fall asleep on de chair liao den saw my great grandma hand bleeding.. called de nurse den she call cuming cuming.. wth la.. here say cuming dere go talk talk wif other nurse.. ( if patients waiting for u to save them den u go talk talk to other nurse, even if is just a seconds of waiting, de patient also can die or something bad also may happen to them la... ) den de nurse change de bandage for her liao den around 8 we went home le... tiring....

and till now den i know tat my great grandma was born in de year 1907.. hahas which means she was now 103 years old liao.. hees love her man!! so cute !!

Labels: tiring day

Friday, February 13, 2009

today at aqua cca attended de betta workshop.
after de workshop, i wanted to ask mr olivia bout de IA thing.
den belinda ask mr olivia first say her mum writing letter to ask her to go to her company.
den mr olivia lik bcame mad cow lik tat la..
say wat if u not interested in fish den quit cca la.. no point staying cos he dun wan to have a student in his club not interested in fishes. den i reply say cca is interest wat but not to de extend to go to fish farm for IA .. den he damn angry wif mi la.. keep on repeating say wat if i cannot go fish farm for my IA den wat for i still stay in tis club, might as well quit. still say wat if i nv choose his aqua module for elective module he will he wat sad n dun wan mi to stay in tis club.. den all his words was shooting at mi la...
just feel so hurtful lo.. i haven even got de chance to reply la... really cannot stand la
den went find belinda pei her go take RO water den saw yanguang.. den talk to him bout wat mr olivia say la.. say say den i cry liao.. cos really! his words damn hurtful...
den went to marine saw yanguang again den she say got thing to tell mi after de cca, mr olivia say one. den ok la.
ur words always so hurtful la... i know u dun lik mi.. but also dun need lik tat de ma!!!
after cca, yanguang say tat mr olivia say he ver disappointed wif mi n ber cos we nv show any interest for de club.. den keep saying my attendance de thing... come on la.. is damn long liao la.. parents letter cannot maiz keep saying n saying.. i was damn angry la.. cos he dint even give mi a chance to say a word la.. den he say all tat to mi.. i just wan to ask u bout de IA thing also nv say wat den u scold scold liao...
n wat belinda say was ritex la... mr olivia say we dint show any interest for de club.. and she reply tat.. when we doing our duty u also nv see it den u say we not interested for de club..

MR OLIVIA.. U WERE ONE OF DE TEACHER TAT I REALLY LIK MOST SINCE I STEPPED INTO UR CLASS IN JANUARY 2008 COS I FIND U FRIENDLY, HAPPY N CUTE LA.. BUT NOW?? I JUST FIND U BIAS, UNFRIENDLY N UNREASONABLE.. COS U DUN LISTEN TO WAT PPL SAY...

left skul liao den elizabeth tout mi tat actually go aqua de IA also ver good cos project got alot of thing can do.. den i heard liao i was liao starting to get interested for aqua de IA .. cos at first i heard de serniors say tat aqua de IA everyday do de same thing which was pump oxygen into de plactic bag n i taut it got nth to link wif wat i wan la.. but now eliz say aqua can help for my project, i really dun mind goin dere.. as long as i can learn different things dere... but to be true la... MEDICAL N AQUA WHICH ONE WILL U CHOOSE... OF COS IS MEDICAL LA.. COS GOT MORE LINK WIF WAT U R STUDYING... N TIS WAS ALSO DE REASON Y I CHOOSE TO TAKE BIOTECHNOLOGY COS I WANT TO WORK IN DE BIOMEDICAL LAB IN DE FUTURE..

just dunno y everywhere i go sure got so many problems de.. i know tat most of de problems lies on my attitude.. but i really wan to do something tat i'm really wan to do for my future work... n for mi.. i do things n i will just develop a interest to tat thing naturally..

just now mummy called mi when i still in bus at amk central goin reach home liao.. she say they all goin hospital see tai ma(great grandma).. cos her leg bleeding.. i wan to follow la.. but they already on de way dere liao.. so they say go tol afternoon.. really scare something will happen to tai ma.. 100 years old plus liao.. tis few days weird weird de.. family all say be prepare tat she will go anytime.. really scare..

Labels: i'm full of worried n scare

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

dunno y tis morning when i'm bathing,
suddenly got a ver strong strong de feeling tat i will go to Aqua fish farm for my industrial attachment IA ..

during QCnA went to ask jinyu n hui koon whether if mr olivia ask them to go fish farm, they will go anot den jinyu planning to quit skul go poly liao.. so good la n congrats..
den huikoon mayb goin poly for IA.. michelle n elizabeth also goin poly for IA..
den onli left wif yanguang christopher korshim beinda n mi la..
somemore say will pick one boi n one gal dere... korshim n berlinda goin to belinda mum's company.. left mi de onli gal liao lo... wa lau now think of mi de onli gal left i really feel lik crying la... i really dun wan to go fish farm for my IA la...

i really felt hopeless la..
den ask belinda ask her mum whether i can go to her company for IA anot..
wa really hope can approve..
think think liao if i really can go den if korshim canot go den i ver selfish la..
i dun wan bcos of mi den he cannot go lo.. haiz..
wat de hell la.. y is tis world full of question n fan nao...
argghhhh really feel lik crying la... haiz..
damn scare to hear mr roy announce tat i;m goin fish farm or staying back in skul for IA ...
i really will cry on de spot... scare scare scare... worry worry worry.... haiz...

Labels: worrying bout where i'm goin for my IA...

today GM practical lesson damn sian la...
waited for so long to carry on wif other practical notes.
also dunno wat miss fong was teaching .. lol
after lunch went for lab maths lesson at computer room...
hees pictures of lecture break... lalalas...

hees lesson break (:

lol 1 real psp 1 fake psp :D

jenelle :D

take 2 :D

lol standard curve..

take 2

mr zhang belinda yanguang :D

lalala...

play play play... when my turn??? hahas

play play play...

korshim :D

yingjun :D

sian la.. overslept at bus 72... got to go de yck change 268..

den hor de bus drive slowly la... green light bcum red light la.. den my bus 268 run la..

den hor i wait until rain lo.. waited so long la..

if de bus 72 nv slowly down n wait for de light to turn red hor i reach home de rain den start la...

nv bring umbrella lo, rain so heavy.. called my brother help mi take umbrella...

got use umbrella lik dun have lik tat la.. hahas whole body wet wet.. lol -.-"

oh ya.. one more happy thing .. hahas i tol dun need to go to fengshan cc liao.. hahas happy sia dun need waste my time dere dunno do wat.. ok la.. even thought go dere can learn more bout presentation, cos my presentation suck.. but i just dun feel lik goin.. but mayb will go on de 280209 sat.. hahas!! at least still can learn tat little bit by watching them present.. hahas !!! yeah!!!

Labels: happy day

Saturday, February 7, 2009